Saturday, April 12, 2014

Struggling

I am struggling with a lot of things lately.

But they say "If there is no struggle, there is no process!" 

Well, I definitely feel that I am in a process and I hope I come out stronger then I have been before. 

About the struggles?

There is for one the struggle with time. The lack of time to do the things in life that are fun. 
Like blogging. 
Like meeting friends and spending time with them. 
Like finishing some of my current leather projects and starting new ones.
Like spending more time in nature, with my camera. Going places and taking hikes with my dog. 
Like learning how to kayak.  
Like reading more of other peoples blogs. 
Like spending more time just being.
Like learning more about food and cook better and healthier  meals.
Things like that. 
There is so much more!

I love my job, but I struggle with the hours we are forced to make. 
Our workdays are usually about 10-12 hours long, including breaks and there is a lot of waiting between the drives sometimes. Waiting and sitting, sitting and waiting.... 
And what to do during that time?
*Thankful* for the invention of SMARTPHONES with a fairly good camera. 
And what you then do is make "selfies" and photos of your surroundings. Most of them I share with my friends on Facebook and Instagram.








The last image Is the most recent one. A normal start of the day at work, me and my co workers take out the busses from the garage, get the heater going, program the destination signs on the bus and get ready to drive down to the station where we take up the first passengers. 

It is one of the nicer parts of the day, there is always some chat and laughter with the co-workers and that is important I believe. It raises the moral and gives you a good kick into the day, much needed sometimes when you start to work so early as we do. 

Yes, struggles I meat constantly, every single day. 
Some are minor, some are major HAHA 
I mean, I for example struggle with my eating habits. Yes! I do. 
I recently had to admit to myself that I am an over-eater. 
I love good food and I often eat way too much of it. Don't get me wrong, I am not fat, but I am at the same time not getting younger and stay on the right weight becomes harder and harder. Especially when you have a occupation where you sit on your butt up to 8 hours a day. 

About 5 months ago I made some changes to my diet. 
I started to eat after the principles of LCHF
Low Carb High Fat. 
And I like it. Although my body is still in the process of transitioning because of it, my body likes it and my blood sugar is really in balance for the first time in my life. 
LCHF has become very popular in Sweden and it helps many people to loose weight without being hungry all the time and it helps people who are diabetic (thank god I am NOT one of them) to lower their medication and raise the quality of their lives immediately. 



It is a very positive thing I believe. It is tuff, but for the most part I manage to stay away from sugar, wheat products like pasta and bread (and that of course includes gluten), and I stay away from artificial additives and fast food as much as possible. 
I'd like to loose a few kilos as well, It is not necessary but it would feel good to be a bit lighter. 
Some bodies react to this the diet changes directly and the pounds just disappear, but with some it takes a while until something happens. And in my case it takes a while I have found out... If you take away carbohydrates from your diet, your hormonal balance in the body has to adjust and it can take up to some months for the hormones to find their way back to a natural balance. 
I mean, honestly, no one really thinks about what food really does to the body right?! 
Food influences hormones in our body all the time, all kind of hormones, not just insulin. 
And those hormones influence each other. So if your insulin level constantly changes every other hormone in your body will be affected and try to create a healthy balance. But the sad thing is that the body hardly ever can do that and so we end up stressing our body and we get diseases. 
So, when you eat carbohydrates all the body is simply a mess. 
And when you leave them out it can take months or even longer for the body to "get healthy" hormone levels again - to become balanced. Well, it is hard to explain and I am no doctor either, so I'll just leave it at that :D 

But, the thing is, I struggle. 
I am addicted to sugar, as most of this planets population. It is what I miss most, the cakes and cookies, honey, maple sirup and sweet fruits like oranges etc....  and it is really hard sometimes to keep up the discipline :(
It's what makes me eat more (of everything I am allowed to eat) then I would need to eat in order to maintain a good energy level throughout the day.

Well well...

...it is as they say: "If there is not struggle, there is no process!" Right?!?



Another thing I struggle with is to be alone. Since the seperation last July I have had lots of ups and downs. 
There are times where I love to be alone, to be able to spend time with just myself and my cats and Cleo (when she is visiting on weekends) and I love to be able to decide to do what ever I want, when I want it and how. And If I decide to do nothing at all, that is okay too. :) 
I enjoy silence. I enjoy listening to music and I enjoy that I don't have to share the remote control with anybody. :D 
But there are days where if feels empty. Where it makes me feel sad to come home into an empty house. I miss sharing my life with that one special person you want to share almost everything with. 
Special moments are even more special if you can share it with someone that cares about you, isn't is so. 

But again... "If there is no struggle, there is no process, right?!! 

So... since it is saturday, since the sun just starts to break trough the morning clouds


it is time to finish this post and get my butt out of bed. Out into the fresh spring air and take the dog (which got a her spring haircut last night) for a walk. And I'll of course take my camera along with me.... you just never know... 

/Michi

PS: I really see now that I need to change the looks of this blog... it's outdated and I crave for spring colors...!!!! Looking forward to that :)





Thursday, March 20, 2014

No prediction can ever be a 100 %

I didn't believe in the weather forecast from the beginning. They said we will get snow in the weekend, it will get nasty. Sure, we had nasty gusty winds, trees fell at lots of places, but hey, we also had lots of sunshine during the weekend. :)
Cleo and I went for walks on saturday and had a good time. The photo was taken on another occasion when it was a bit colder though ;) 

























Aaron is also doing fine. He's a grown up dog now and he recently got a grown up collar - which I made myself :D 

























And then, of course I spent time with my two wonderful cats Missy Lou and Mika. 
They love to cuddle and just hang out with me in my leather workshop. 




And last but not least, here's some of the work I did in the weekend. 
I started a few new wristbands, they all still need a coat of finish and the snaps need to be attached. And with the two with the punched holes will have to attach some synthetic stones. Cool stuff. 
And! The best thing is that I will soon be selling some of those wristbands in a local country store :D :D 





Friday, March 14, 2014

Not much blogging going on.

Hi,
Yes, it's been a while since my last post.
Someone said not too long ago "I miss your blog".
I miss it too.
It was fun sharing our everyday life and meeting all of the other bloggers who I used to "visit" every day  -and they'd visit back.
Good times.

But life has changed quite a bit. Working full time and long working days, that is how my life looks like mostly. In my free time I have acquired a new hobby.
I work with leather.
I make wristbands, belts, dog collars and quivers for horseback archery.
It is still a hobby, but I hope that it will become a hobby with an extra income. My dream/goal is that I can do less of what I do for a living right now and do more leatherwork.

I just started to put together a homepage where I present my produkts, but it is a long way from finished.
The homepage runs with WordPress and it includes a blogg section.
I have no idea how active I will be there and what kind of things I will be sharing - probably just things about my leatherwork. I guess.

the address is

www.michisleatherwork.com

just in case someone wants to check it out ;)

Well, other then that... what is there to report from Sweden?

We had a mild winter here in south Sweden, not much snow at all, but we had many grey and rainy days in exchange. I would have really preferred snow and sunshine...
But then we were surprised that spring decided to spoil us really early this year, about two weeks ago the first cranes arrived and one week prior we were happy to see flocks of geese heading north.
Really early!!!!
But I guess they know what they are doing those birds.
This past week we have been enjoying lots of sunshine - and that was really needed after all those grey months with little daylight.
Sure, there is still always that chance that we could get some snow, but hey, we've come that far so we just keep being positive and are enjoying the longer days.

Soon my break is over, only a few more hours to go here then I'll go home and get lots of needed rest this weekend. And I'll be doing some leatherwork.
Because it's fun :)

Hej så länge,

Michi


Saturday, October 26, 2013

One more time winter is just around the corner

I took these photos about 2 weeks ago. 
Life here in Småland (a region of Sweden also called Kronobergs län) doesn't really change, we do what we do every day, go to work and try to keep up to the speed of this time and space we were placed in. We just get older and hopefully somewhat wiser as we row along. 
Life just does it's thing and sometimes WE just find each other in different places when we wake up the next day. 
Never the less, life is good and we do our best to still love and support each other. 
Half of the family moved away from Södratorp, but of course we continue to be part of each others lives. 
Cleo comes and visits during weekends and the cats (Mika and MissyLou) and I really enjoy her company. Of course we go for walks en have a good time. 

Here come some impressions from this lovely lovely autumn season we are given to experience. 
...after an incredible nice summer i have to add..! 



/hillybillyfarmgirl


























































Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Thinking about a vacation from the vacation.... ;-)

Cleo and Aaron are saying "HI"



...and so does Hillybillyfarmgirl aka Michaela :)

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Away-from-blog-vacation


HBFG is taking a break from blogging.
How long? Who knows...

What is time anyways! ;-)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Midsommar 2011 in Småland




Well, get ready for a whole bunch of photographs, I took them all with my iPhone (3GS) yesterday.

We were invited to celebrate THE VERY TRADITIONAL SWEDISH MUST MUST MUST CELEBRATE - HOLIDAY 

m i d s o m m a r 

with our friends Malyn and Philip and the 2 sons A. & N. 
They live on a lovely farm just outside of a lovely little village called "Tolg". 
I took following photo of their house in August 2009.






When we got there late afternoon, everything was prepared. 
Look at that...
The table setting was really lovely, with real wild strawberries treaded on real blades of grass. 










Midsommar is all about spending time with family and friends, AND good FOOD!
As a starter we had potatoes, salmon and herring.
Yummie...
AND typically swedish.
A MUST at MIDSOMMAR!









This is the lady of the house...








Here we have the man of the house...
He and one of the boys opened up a bottle of their home brewed beer (it tasted really good, even for someone like me who doesn't usually like beer)










...and the others had either normal beer, white wine or this...
Elderberry juice - with taste of wild strawberries, again...
A MUST HAVE AT MIDSOMMAR!












In the background we listened to a couple of typical swedish MUST-LISTEN TO (OR SING)

midsommar/festival - songs...

I guess it is a good idea to get one of those Cd's for ourselves at home, just in case ;-)











Then, (the boys had already fired up the BBQ-coles when we got there) it was time to put the meat on the GRILL!

AND Malyn, the lady of the house, surprised us with another MUST HAVE - MUST DO MIDSOMMAR TRADITION!


Remember when I wrote in my last post "midsommar vacation" that I (or in that case WE) wouldn't be wearing a chaplet from daisies on my head???!!!


WELL, sometimes you just gotta go with the flow, right! ;-))










The nice thing was that we all got to wear those pretty chaplets, even the two young men!
They wore them with pride, as you can see...










Handsome Handsome Handsome! :)










The hosts wore them with pride too, look how they shine!







Then, after a visit to the horses, with some pieces of crisp bread (knäckebröd) in our hands, it was time for DINNER!
Oh it tasted "så gott"! :)) All of it!

Ice cold Schnapps was served for the brave ones during the meal, right in those colorful and (in my opinion huge) shot glasses.
Another MUST HAVE - MUST DO midsommar tradition! :)








Time flew by while we ate, talked and laughed and before we even knew it it was already time for coffee and STRAWBERRY CAKE  - the ultimate MUST HAVE midsommar - ingredient!
I watched Malyn work on finishing the strawberry cake (part of it was already made the evening before).
I could see that she had years of experience putting "that thing" together. :)










I assure you, that cake tasted as good as it looked...







"Michi" hurry uuuuup, one picture is enough! Coffee is ready and we wanna get started with that caaaaaake!! :)))









Y U M M I I I I EEEEEEEEE!







Even though we had to go home again way too soon (our puppy dogs were home alone) it was still a real treat, the hosts, the food, the "ambience" and all the good laughs we had.
A big "thank you" to the host-family !!! ♥




Last but not least I post a photo of "Bessy"... she didn't get meat and didn't get cake, but she did get pet and scratched a lot. And she got "levergodis", I had some of Cleo's in my pocket (dog biscuits).
AND the boys, A. & N., took her for a walk!
I am positive that she had a fun midsommerafton (midsummer-evening) as well :))





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