But they say "If there is no struggle, there is no process!"
Well, I definitely feel that I am in a process and I hope I come out stronger then I have been before.
About the struggles?
There is for one the struggle with time. The lack of time to do the things in life that are fun.
Like blogging.
Like meeting friends and spending time with them.
Like finishing some of my current leather projects and starting new ones.
Like spending more time in nature, with my camera. Going places and taking hikes with my dog.
Like learning how to kayak.
Like reading more of other peoples blogs.
Like spending more time just being.
Like learning more about food and cook better and healthier meals.
Things like that.
There is so much more!
I love my job, but I struggle with the hours we are forced to make.
Our workdays are usually about 10-12 hours long, including breaks and there is a lot of waiting between the drives sometimes. Waiting and sitting, sitting and waiting....
And what to do during that time?
*Thankful* for the invention of SMARTPHONES with a fairly good camera.
And what you then do is make "selfies" and photos of your surroundings. Most of them I share with my friends on Facebook and Instagram.
The last image Is the most recent one. A normal start of the day at work, me and my co workers take out the busses from the garage, get the heater going, program the destination signs on the bus and get ready to drive down to the station where we take up the first passengers.
It is one of the nicer parts of the day, there is always some chat and laughter with the co-workers and that is important I believe. It raises the moral and gives you a good kick into the day, much needed sometimes when you start to work so early as we do.
Yes, struggles I meat constantly, every single day.
Some are minor, some are major HAHA
I mean, I for example struggle with my eating habits. Yes! I do.
I recently had to admit to myself that I am an over-eater.
I love good food and I often eat way too much of it. Don't get me wrong, I am not fat, but I am at the same time not getting younger and stay on the right weight becomes harder and harder. Especially when you have a occupation where you sit on your butt up to 8 hours a day.
About 5 months ago I made some changes to my diet.
I started to eat after the principles of LCHF
Low Carb High Fat.
And I like it. Although my body is still in the process of transitioning because of it, my body likes it and my blood sugar is really in balance for the first time in my life.
LCHF has become very popular in Sweden and it helps many people to loose weight without being hungry all the time and it helps people who are diabetic (thank god I am NOT one of them) to lower their medication and raise the quality of their lives immediately.
It is a very positive thing I believe. It is tuff, but for the most part I manage to stay away from sugar, wheat products like pasta and bread (and that of course includes gluten), and I stay away from artificial additives and fast food as much as possible.
I'd like to loose a few kilos as well, It is not necessary but it would feel good to be a bit lighter.
Some bodies react to this the diet changes directly and the pounds just disappear, but with some it takes a while until something happens. And in my case it takes a while I have found out... If you take away carbohydrates from your diet, your hormonal balance in the body has to adjust and it can take up to some months for the hormones to find their way back to a natural balance.
I mean, honestly, no one really thinks about what food really does to the body right?!
Food influences hormones in our body all the time, all kind of hormones, not just insulin.
And those hormones influence each other. So if your insulin level constantly changes every other hormone in your body will be affected and try to create a healthy balance. But the sad thing is that the body hardly ever can do that and so we end up stressing our body and we get diseases.
So, when you eat carbohydrates all the body is simply a mess.
And when you leave them out it can take months or even longer for the body to "get healthy" hormone levels again - to become balanced. Well, it is hard to explain and I am no doctor either, so I'll just leave it at that :D
But, the thing is, I struggle.
I am addicted to sugar, as most of this planets population. It is what I miss most, the cakes and cookies, honey, maple sirup and sweet fruits like oranges etc.... and it is really hard sometimes to keep up the discipline :(
It's what makes me eat more (of everything I am allowed to eat) then I would need to eat in order to maintain a good energy level throughout the day.
Well well...
It's what makes me eat more (of everything I am allowed to eat) then I would need to eat in order to maintain a good energy level throughout the day.
Well well...
...it is as they say: "If there is not struggle, there is no process!" Right?!?
Another thing I struggle with is to be alone. Since the seperation last July I have had lots of ups and downs.
There are times where I love to be alone, to be able to spend time with just myself and my cats and Cleo (when she is visiting on weekends) and I love to be able to decide to do what ever I want, when I want it and how. And If I decide to do nothing at all, that is okay too. :)
I enjoy silence. I enjoy listening to music and I enjoy that I don't have to share the remote control with anybody. :D
But there are days where if feels empty. Where it makes me feel sad to come home into an empty house. I miss sharing my life with that one special person you want to share almost everything with.
Special moments are even more special if you can share it with someone that cares about you, isn't is so.
But again... "If there is no struggle, there is no process, right?!!
So... since it is saturday, since the sun just starts to break trough the morning clouds
it is time to finish this post and get my butt out of bed. Out into the fresh spring air and take the dog (which got a her spring haircut last night) for a walk. And I'll of course take my camera along with me.... you just never know...
/Michi
PS: I really see now that I need to change the looks of this blog... it's outdated and I crave for spring colors...!!!! Looking forward to that :)
PS: I really see now that I need to change the looks of this blog... it's outdated and I crave for spring colors...!!!! Looking forward to that :)
